Barefoot in dirt

     Today was FINISH THE GARDEN day.
     Kaelynn stayed home with daddy while I made a quick trip out to Wal-Mart for more dirt and plants to fill in the new bed. She was a very good girl, even with her not wanting to nap or cuddle.
    
     Daddy finished adding the soil and I broke up and placed where I wanted them all to go while Kaelynn supervised. She took a break to help me exfoliate my legs and dig in her own section of dirt. Daddy let her touch and hold a huge worm, I was less than impressed. I understand they're good for the plants I love, but GROSS.

Spring at last

   

  Spring has finally arrived in our area of the world. This has me super excited. We are at a new house with a new small garden. I am sad about the flowers we left behind, but I get to start over. There is a rose bush and another stump that has started to bud already. I have planted my mini roses outside, due to a very creepy mite infestation. I have dug out my seeds and look forward to sorting them and starting them (even if it is far too early to directly plant outside). I really want to figure out an awesome Fae Garden.

     I have a great little helper in Kaelynn, if she's worn on my back. She laughs when I dig in the dirt. Yet, hates getting her hands dirty.

     With this nicer weather, we have been out exploring the backyard and "park". She is far too interested in the little girls that always seem to be out in their yard.

     Now that Spring has sprung, hopefully there is no going back ((and I get cute awesome Mother's day garden stuff)).

Sitting and sleeping

     Even though we usually fight sleep during the day, Kaelynn slept through the night lastnight. I put her down to sleep around 8:30pm and when I woke at 3am from lack of noises, she was fast asleep. I picked her up and feed her while she was still sleeping. I put her back in her bed, expecting a fight- and nothing. She slept until about 6am, when Daddy had to get up anyway. Yet, I feel more tired than when she sleeps with me. She needs to learn to sleep alone...and I've noticed the right side of her head seems to be going flat(no one else has noticed).

     We're working on sitting up, unassisted.Today she sat for 3 seconds! Go baby girl. Today we also met up with an old friend from highschool. Deanna and her son Jacob met us for Coffee. She spent most of the time chasing around her 1 year old. I am excited/nervous about that stage. We then packed up and went for a walk downtown. On the way, I did some errands, and forgot one thing I was downtown for. If my mind were the ocean, I'd constantly be lost at sea.

      Tomorrow, I wanted to attempt swimming again, but we have to wait around for the cable man. Exciting. Thursday, we go back to see the physiotherapist. Right now, we're waiting around for a thunderstorm, so I should start dinner -just in case (its funny- most of my posts end with me going about to make dinner).

     I was trying to upload a picture of MY lemon tree, but it was failing, so here is a Google image of what it will look like with lemons.

The Reality of Reality

     I have been watching random reality tv on Netflix because I find it interesting. Shows like Sister Wives and Jon & Kate Plus 8. Jake dislikes that I waste my time with such nonsense because it just makes me dumb. I watch it because other people's lives who are vastly different from mine intrigue me. The other day Jake told me to get some friends if other people intrige me. It's hard for me to make friends. I just feel so awkward. Even at Mother's Circle, I feel strange and alien. I just feel like I don't fit in and I don't know what I have to do to fit in. I have some friends, but they have busy lives and even now I feel like I am a bother. I guess this not working time has been giving me time to reflect and feel lonesome. I know I have to change so Kaelynn will be able to interact and become a stable, friendly individual. I like to think I am friendly and approachable....

     I am currently making lactation cookies. I am on Domperidone, and taking Blessed Thistle and Fenugreek supplements. Anything I can do to help boost milk supply, more so since I think Kaelynn is going through a growth spurt. She's been sleepy, fussy, and wanting to nurse all the time. My production has increased, but it could be better. In a 2-3 day span, I can freeze about 5oz of milk.

     Kaelynn is currently sleeping, so I can clean up from baking and clean up the livingroom. I am also going to call around and see if I can find a Meyer Lemon tree/price of one. I would like Kaelynn to have a Birth Tree, only we rent. If I can find a reasonably priced container tree, that would be perfect. It can go in her room during the winter months, and I am thinking if it's citrus, the cats would leave it alone.

Lactation Cookie Recipe
 Preheat oven to 375F
... Cooking time 10-12 mins
Serves 36 cookies

1 cup butter/margarine **
1 cup sugar
1 cup brown sugar
2 eggs
1 tsp vanilla
2 cups flour
1 tsp salt
3 cups oats
1 cup raisins or chocolate chips
½ cup slivered almonds
2 tbsp brewers yeast
4 tbsp water
2 tbsp flaxseed meal

1. Mix flax and water and set aside for 3 mins (it makes a runny paste)
2. Cream butter and sugars, add eggs
3. Add flaxseed mix, then vanilla
4. Combine dry ingredients except oats, raisins, almonds.
5. Add butter mixture to the dry mix
6. Stir in oats, raisins/chocolate chips, and almonds
7. Using two teaspoons, drop dough onto non-stick cookie sheet
8. Bake for 10-12 mins at 375F
9. Remove from cookie sheet to cooling rack when they are warm, not cold, and not when just fresh out of the oven.
10. ENJOY!
1-4 cookies a day can help to boost milk supply as required. Avoid oats, flax, brewers yeast if you have an oversupply. Yummy cookies are safe for all ages and genders to eat.

**For a lighter cookie you can use 2/3 cup of becel light and 1/3 cup unsweetened apple sauce in place of the 1 cup of butter.**