Saturday, September 29, 2012

19 weeks

I am going to attempt to take all my pictures in the same tank top. Good thing I have a whole bunch of them from Esthetics schooling. Looks like I am starting to show.
I have never been the skinniest person, as the following picture from Hallowe'en last year shows....but I just feel like I am getting fat. My stomach isn't huge, but I keep hitting it with doors, oh my.
I'm not sure if I have felt any movements as I have a permanent pulse going on.
    While out today at the mall with my brother, I spent money I shouldn't have....on something that I won't be able to use for months. I just fell in love with the outfit and bibs. We left the store and I had to turn around and get it.

However, due to being out all morning, I now have chores and stuff I should be accomplishing.
Dishes, shower, tidying, catlove and crocheting.

Tuesday, September 25, 2012

Pink Carnations and a pick up truck

Today was my anatomy ultrasound. Like usual, I drank too much water. You think I would know better by 18 weeks and 6 days.
There were scans of all the organs and limbs. Everything is intact. Heart beat was 142bpm.
When she mentioned she was doing the scans, I was like "...and gendddddderr?"  It all depended on positioning. Legs were crossed.
After being given my cup to go empty some of my bladder, she continued the scans. To get the pictures of the heart, baby was in the wrong position. The tech kept poking me in the belly, trying to nudge. Eventually she got it.
More time passed and I was allowed to fully empty my bladder. I poked my belly and told it to behave! She tried to find the gender..and success.

It's a girl and her weight is 9 ounces.
I was out with a friend and we stopped into Wal-Mart. I wanted to get something for my boyfriend to tell him while he was at work, without me actually telling him. I was thinking a ITS A GIRL balloon, but then he would have to take it on the bus. We looked for a pink cupcake, but none were to be had. I got him a bunch of pink carnations and a "baby girl" card. I wrote on the envelope, GUESS WHAT! and left it at the information desk with his name on it. That seems classier to travel with on the bus....and hopefully he gives me back the flowers!

Friday, September 21, 2012

Just breathe

I am midway through 4 months. After realizing this as I looked at the date quickly before getting ready for work, I can feel my heart racing.

I feel no baby flutters yet, so it seems weird when my boyfriend puts his face against my belly. I still just feel like I am getting fat.

My boss did the Chinese predictor and said I am having a girl. Here's hoping on Tuesday they let me know.

I also just can't shake the feeling that people just think I am fat. Yes, I have always been belly fat, but this is weird. I've always struggled with my weight, so I feel uncomfortable.
More on this later, the clock says its time to get dressed....and poke a cat sleeping in my new beanbag chair!

Wednesday, September 19, 2012

Mama senses are tingling

     I guess it all started the day that I found out I was pregnant.

     For weeks, I had been feeling weird. Like, the feeling pre-cold/flu. I was unsure if it was illness or just stress from exams and finally (almost) being finished college for Esthetics. When I feel ill, I always grab a mint of some sort (candy or fresh). The only thing on hand when my friend and I were on the way to the mall were crystal mints. I popped one in my mouth. Bad idea.
     All I could taste was the corn syrup in the candy. The mint was not even appealing. I just thought the candy was off.
      Since then I had noticed others of my favourite foods rebelling on me.
  Roast turkey from my favourite deli tasted like chicken. Babybel cheese just tasted like plastic. Onions and garlic made me run to the bathroom. Polski Olgorki (polish pickles) tasted like dill pickle chips. I could taste all the fake sugary substances in candy.
      I  am not a very picky eater, but when you can't have your go tos....
            Yet, some things have never tasted so good. Rock on fresh fruits!

      Then it was the smells. I have always had a sensitive nose. What I found was that people really smell bad. Be it, over use of scents, no use of scents, bad breath, cigarette smoke, and whatever filth humans get them selves into.
Aside from people smelling bad, the world smells bad. Stains on the pavement, garbage, cooking, animals, cars, and anything the heat warms up.

   It's garbage night and I can promise that when I walk to the bus to get to work, people will have their trash sitting on the curb already. Time to don my pregnancy bubble and get ready for work!

Tuesday, September 18, 2012

Congratulations... what?

So, you took the test. Freaked out a bit. Might have uttered a swear or two at your friend that was with you. Took another test. The proof is in the Positive. You're going to have a baby. Wait, that can't be right. Wait until the doctor says so. The doctor said you're going to have a baby. If this paragraph feels speed up and smooshed together, thats how your brain is probably feeling. That's what mine was like.

I found out when I was 5 weeks pregnant, and still feel in shock at 18 weeks. It doesn't seem real.
Now, to tell the SO. He was away at a paintball tournament when I found out. We had talked about kid(s) for when we have everything in order. After being minimally employed and just graduating college, I didn't think "everything was in order". How did I do it? I made him a steak dinner for when he came home, and had a bubble bath waiting for when he walked through the door. Then came the typical, "do you love me?" "how much?" "will you leave me?" questions..and then the truth of the matter (with tears). Everything turned out okay.

In the first weeks after I found out, I had morning sickness about every other day. It was fun and exciting, if it wasn't nausea, it was actual vomiting. It got better, it moved to about once a week as I passed the 10 week mark. Now,at 18 weeks, I randomly get nausea (mostly if I smell something that is quite unpleasant or ride the bus for too long).

So far, only people that I trust and love know. I didn't want to say anything before the 14th week, incase something happened. (knock on wood) Now, people still do not know, even though I am starting to show. In a week, I am going to tell everyone the news, of course on Facebook. Why in a week? I hope that in my 19th week ultrasound, we will be able to find out the gender. If not...noone will know.

Everything that has happened has been uneventful. Feeling tired, growing pains, nausea, larger breasts, weaning off caffiene. Everything from now on will be documented, as a way to share.

For now, I am the mother of three cats and copious houseplants. Common law wife to my boyfriend of almost eight years. Full time cafeteria lady. Esthetician when called for.
Expectant Mother.