Just breathe

I am midway through 4 months. After realizing this as I looked at the date quickly before getting ready for work, I can feel my heart racing.

I feel no baby flutters yet, so it seems weird when my boyfriend puts his face against my belly. I still just feel like I am getting fat.

My boss did the Chinese predictor and said I am having a girl. Here's hoping on Tuesday they let me know.

I also just can't shake the feeling that people just think I am fat. Yes, I have always been belly fat, but this is weird. I've always struggled with my weight, so I feel uncomfortable.
More on this later, the clock says its time to get dressed....and poke a cat sleeping in my new beanbag chair!